MY PERSONAL SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT

I turned 30 this year, and my balding head denies me passing for anything younger – but then again, I’ve never had a problem being confused as older. As an Aquarius interested in…well…everything spiritual, I try all kinds of weird, mystical things. Wizardry, as one might call it, hits my passion dead on. Yet I’m struggling to truly accept this at the moment. You see, life events are starting to happen that are strange and magical. What kinds of life events? Good ones, really good ones! Life events affecting my career, my personal life, my happiness, my health, things I don’t know and things I can’t know. All in due time. These things don’t happen overnight, after all (except when they do). 

Universe Tarot Card

Universe Tarot Card

The point is, I’ve been resisting accepting all of these things, not because it belies my inherent distaste for all determinism – I can get off this ride at any time, right? – but because change hurts, and is exciting and scary all at the same time. I would probably do better if I was a little more patient with life events. Most people who know me are constantly telling me to slow down, but life is so damned exhilarating right now that I can’t wait to see what’s around the next corner! So instead of worrying about the apparent senselessness of my experiences, I’m just going with them. I’m owning my weirdness in acknowledging their mystical overlay on my reality. I’m reaching out to grasp them all and pull them in. I’m leaning into the mystery.

“You could say the principal difference between the magician and the non-magician is the same as that of a motorist and a mechanic. Both of them drive but only one of them is professionally interested in popping the hood.” (From: http://runesoup.com/2012/04/the-tarot-of-unpopular-futures/#ixzz3WlY8BYS5)

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